As I'm driving back

a sudden thought strikes me and made me realise,
that what i planned before and hope to have at this point of time,
has already been achieved by those who are very close and dear to me.

i work hard and put my heart for it god knows.
but it just seem so far away to reach,
getting further and further away each day.

which part did I do wrong?

i'm angry and got very irritated with myself,
with the whole situation.

i envy them.