It is so unfair

I always have a vision of where my life is going...
at least partially.
Through out my 26 years in this world... ok.. make it 20... coz i dont know what the hell happened in my first 6 years, i worked hard and tried whatever possible to get what i want to be happy.. to be successful.
Unlike blessed people who most of the time have things flourishing their way,
I on the other hand have to work for it,
be it for personal, career or relationship.
And when i achieved it, I know because i believed in what i wanted, believed in my auto scribbled plan of action inside my head *which i never knew how to verbally pronounce it*, believed in what i thought was the right thing/best thing to do and that i persevered through whatever comes my way.

But this time is different.

I cannot do this alone.

I need assurance to help me believe once again that this is the right direction.
That it is ok for me to cross that bridge,
and that I'm going to be well taken care of emotionally, religiously and financially.

I always believe EVERYTHING happens for a reason.

But love, please help me believe in us.

Mom and dad, please understand that this is not as easy as it seems.

God, please tell me what to do and i'll do it.
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